• 3:52 PM, Friday, June 06, 2008
i am so freaking bored! my life sucks!
OMg?!
it's so so so so boring!!
i'm rotting at home like some rotting cheese!
one minute, everything seems so perfect
and the next, it seems like every thing's falling apart.
what is going on?
did i do something wrong to deserve this?
i can't see my grandparents.
i can't see my cousins.
i also can't see the guy i'm crushin' on. (Bali is no where near here that's for sure)
sigh.
AND I'M ROTTING AT HOME ! (of all place)
I'll live. ( i have to)
just a few more days to my camps and chalet.
cool.
no more staying at home.
:D
the guy on the left is the kind montfort guy that helped us carry the heavy load.
such a gentleman!
haha.
''what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger''
there's a few strands of my hair that is so light it looks golden.
but no white hair! (thank god)
i'm so jumping from point to point.
no wonder i don't score high marks for my compo.
tst tsk.
god!
i'm gonna go rot some more!
it's not a must to like anyone. yeap, i know that.
mummy keeps telling me not to get myself involved in anymore relationships.
but amazingly she was ok with my first.
but like i said, guys will be guys.
sigh, if only there was someone who was like him, but only in the beginning. i don't want the ending.
i kinda feel afraid that if i like Dylan, people might say stuff.
though i can chose to ignore it but if i was in his position, i wouldn't like that feeling.
some may also think that i'm using him to forget Gabriel.
but this i can promise that it's not.
he's long gone from my heart.
but if i was Dylan, i would have given up hope long long ago.
which means i ruined my chances. ):
i should have followed my heart in the beginning.
i was dumb to say yes to it when i felt a connection between us.
as for now, the hope of you liking me is probably so slim it can't be seen. ):
since you can gossip with your friends and bad mouth about me, i'm sure you won't hesitate to tell Dylan that either.
sigh.
it seems as though i'm fated not to have any guy friends. (other than some people)
it's like, some 'spark' will be present. and then it'll kinda ruin our friendship when i do not accept it.
first was some css guy now, ...
sigh sigh sigh.
I'll wait for camp.
if it doesn't work out, then that's the day i'm over likings guys from church.
(not that i'm negative but it'll ruin my ''reputation'' )
if only it could be a happily ever after.
