• 9:44 AM, Friday, May 09, 2008
things got complicated and it had to end this way.it feels weird now that we're not together.
it's weird not to think of you before going to bed.
it's weird not to look at my phone and wait for your msg.
it's also weird that i can't stop talking and thinking about you.
it's like everything anyone say, i don't know how, but it'll link to you.
but I'll HAVE to get use to not doing all these anymore.
it's hard but i gotta try.
it's boring at home!
and I've gotta like do something to keep my mind occupied so i wouldn't think about anything else.
it's running away.
but this way, the pain won't be so intense.
and i'm also not gonna cry anymore. (cause i won't stop)
and plus,
crying = use of tissue = more trees die = global warming = depletion of ozone layer = people die
= I'll die
so.. yeah.
and i realise i'm pretty dramatic.
like once over the same thing, i was crying on my way home and when i got back my dad asked and i lied saying that i didn't think i did well for my SS paper. i somehow cheered up a little, went in the room, closed the door with a smile and when the door was closed, i cried like it was the end of the world.haha
that's funny.
end of sad stuff.
GREEN m&m :
was said to make guys horny. but i don't see how it does.
but for me, after eating them.
no i did not get horny.
i got high.
don't know why but i felt really really high.
it was the same feeling i got when we drank a little too much at the party.
HOLIDAYS:
I'll die if i have to stay home during the holidays.
i swear!
i watched the same series of the Ellen Degeneres show 5 times
some other discovery channel thing
desperate housewives
and some detective show.
wth
i'm dying soon and my mum doesn't allow me to go out.
and honestly, if i don't get out of the house today, you might have to visit me at the loony bin.
sad case huh?
raychel is the best!
she's there when i was up
she's there when i was down
she's there when..
i mean you get it right?
she's there when i'm going through everything i went through.
she gives funny advices and she can be REALLY retarded at times.
and how sad or unhappy i can be, she never fails to cheer me up.
my life is in a mess.
and i'm gonna do something about it!
i think..
