• 3:33 PM, Sunday, May 25, 2008
i'm sorry.i should not take it out on you.
it's not even your fault.
but please stop asking me those questions cause you're giving me FALSE hope.
to think of it, if i hadn't started anything, all this wouldn't even happen.
and i wouldn't feel the way i feel now, or yesterday.
forget it.
why should i let it bother me?
is he that worth it?
what's the point?
if only all these thoughts actually work.
it's no point if it works only sometimes and doesn't in church.
i think that's the most important place it should work.
what goes around comes around.
i guess i'm getting back what i did to the other guy.
and maybe i feel this way because i'm not satisfied?
idk. something like that.
it's almost like i wasted my first kiss kinda feeling?
yeap. something like that.
i think it'll be great if i had an older sibling i can complain to.
my two siblings will never understand.
friends?
who's actually there to listen to my repeated crap?
my mum?
she's great at ''listening''
what goes in, comes out from the other side.
i wanna go to a place where there are pretty flowers and a nice weather.
peace and quietness.
where everything seems perfect.
but i guess i gotta keep dreaming cause somehow that ain't gonna happen.
and i can't stand how everything seems like a routine.
it's like every Sunday, i'll take the 8.17 bus and this mother and daughter will always be on it.
then we'll stop at the hiding place where they will switch to 86 will i switch to 103.
and at my 103 bus stop, i'll always see this old guy with this lady.
the guy will then cross the road and board bus 163
while the lady board 86.
you see!
i can remember all this because it's been happening over and over again every Sunday?!
routine much?
i guess we really can't judge someone by the way they look.
clement gives really good advices.
woah. i'm actually shocked.
he's a nice kid(:
and, i'm gonna agree with what you said just now.
that boys are a waste of time and that they are not worth it.
i'm not gonna say i can't live without you cause hey, i've been living for 14 years without you and i'm high and alive.
i'll continue later
