• 9:58 PM, Saturday, May 31, 2008
i went to church just now to clean the ava room.it's like OMG!?
5 years of dirt and dust and did i mention cobwebs?
like seriously?
ooh.. we were scrubbing the walls and i think i put a little too much force and the paint kinda came out with it.
haha
tomorrow is Sunday.
we're going to Silra home tomorrow.
which means we'll be free from 10-12pm.
which means that it'll happen again.
you making me feel unimportant will happen all over again.
sigh.
this time, i'm not gonna let it get to me.
what goes around comes around, so if you're doing that on purpose, i wish you good luck.
and to ensure that it'll not happen again, i'm gonna bring things to entertain me.
things like.. erm..
maybe my ''To kill A Mocking Bird'' book?
yeap i shall bring that cause i've not yet completed the chapter.
i'll need to seek help for the one Above.
i'll ask him to give me comfort.
i'll ask him to give me peace and that i will not take my anger out on anyone.
i'll ask him to dry my tears so that i will not shed a tear in front of anyone.
last but not least, i'm gonna wear a smile on my face.
no matter how fake it'll look, i'll do it.
then Amanda is gonna make me walk with her to the shell station to buy the sausage and her milk and we'll most probably walk back again cause Amanda wants to buy another sausage.
haha
after all this shit, i realise i'm getting closer to my mummy.
i think she's pretty understanding after all.
she gives great advices.
same are lame but others are pretty much useful.
like when she said not to get into a relationship, i shouldve listened.
yeap. i regret it now.
i wanna go visit my grandparents but it seems almost impossible.
my family is soo complicated.
i don't understand why i can't have a family that doesn't quarrel everyday.
or a family who disowns each other.
):
so much for my happy life.
why can't i have a life like Denise tan?
she's got a seemingly perfect life.
her grades are not bad.
her first boyfriend and they're like together for almost 9 months now.
her life seems so perfect.
and then compare mine with hers?
gosh i'm no where near it.
omg my life sucks!
and BF, now you know how i felt when i was crazy over him?
you really like the guy but at the same time to try not to show cause you're afraid people will say that you're desperate and all.
well you're not.
it's normal for you to feel that way.
don't give a damn to what others say about him cause different people have different 'taste'
anyway, thanks for being there when my tears refuse to stop.
thanks for being there to cheer me up by telling my all your lame lame jokes.
haha
you're the best.
and yeah.. stand by for tomorrow, cause i doubt i'm that strong.
